me vs world

i have often scratched my head in amazement and questioned how some people can be so self centered and self absorbed.1001 thoughts scampered around my mind on how i can be just as selfish and how to get my message across.if you know what i mean.i am an impatience person which is the byproduct of my stacking inner anger.i never invited this problem in-its just there to be some part of life perhaps.honestly,i never really dealt with them.i put them in my pocket till its really bulking and without knowing it,im actually keeping a weapon of mass destruction within myself.it had exploded a few times and to tell the truth,it had really cost me dearly.thus,i cut myself off from everyday's blessing of being alive and well.but looking outside the box,i know that some people are who they actually are due to circumtances which they had no control of.it's up to ourselves to choose how to react to them.on the other hand,i should learn to let go off things-the reason why so much anger and frustration were left to grow was i could not let go off the past.i kept on visiting them!i actually reasoned and actioned to deal with it.i hope someone would read this and try to understand how it is difficult to be in my shoes.well,they took thousand years to build rome didnt they?time is all i need.please,i am no psycho!